I was actually IN two of them, the other two i was kinda just watching, unaffected. Well the last one I had left me with something. I'm apparently going to be taught Humility, after suffering from a cuncussion from having a motorcycle wreck. Hmmm. It kinda made me think though. Am I humble - or do I just have false humility? I'm not really sure. You best believe I'll be trying to figure it out.
My life is pretty complicated at the moment. I'm in masters of course, so that always complicates things a bit, but several people are trying to waltz back into my life who weren't really there to start with and I'm not really sure I want in my life anyway. Great. Seems wonderful doesn't it. I'm not trying to complain, if i sound like I am. It's actually kind of cool that, apparently, God finds me able to cope with this much turmoil in my mind. Although it isn't, at all, fun - it makes me feel a tinge of pride (the good kind) to know I'm ready, even though I would probably argue that fact.
A friend and I were talking to other day. I was complaining, sadly, about how most of the time I feel like I'm stumbling around in a dark room trying to find a light switch, or a flashlight, or a match, or anything, but I keep stumbling and hitting my head on every sharp object in a ten foot radius. She gave me some very wise words. Stand still for a while. Stop trying to find my own way in the darkness and just trust.
I'm trying really hard, but I'm pretty self-sufficient.
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